I hit a low yesterday — not in my spirits but in the way I feel physically. I have been feeling like absolute garbage for the past 3 days. I think I began feeling this way once the steroids wore off after my last treatment. So shitty. Rashes, sores, perpetual…

Every week at chemo I’ve asked the nurses the same question: What percentage of people lose their hair? Every week I’ve gotten a similar answer. Some version of, Hmmm…I don’t think I’ve seen anyone keep their hair with this chemo regimen. Five weeks. Five different nurses. Still, I held out…

Chemo starts tomorrow morning at 7am and I’m sorting through a lot of fears and anxieties about that and plenty of other things too. It’s been quite a week. Tuesday, I took three baths on the same day because I honestly did not know how else to cope. Well, I…

Eviction Day Ive been up since 1:45am, unable to sleep. Thankfully surgery begins early because I’m impatient. After weeks of tests and planning, I finally get to go under the knife and get this cancer out of my body. Can I get a whoot-whoot! People have been texting and calling…

Brad and I walked into Seattle Cancer Care Alliance on Tuesday at 11:30am, excited to meet the medical team and learn absolutely everything we could about what I have and how we’re going to kill it. We walked out 6 hours later with a plan (and the extra added bonus…

Everyone has a friend who has survived breast cancer. And many of us have that ‘one’ who didn’t. Which friend will I be? This is the question I’ve had in the back (and front) of my mind & heart since hearing the news last week that I have breast cancer. …

Our family is living through a phase of what feels like utter chaos. Some unavoidable. Some self-inflicted. The unavoidable stuff is the usual chaos and heightened workload that comes along with kids going back to school, plus other unforeseen things such as Gillie eating (a lot) of sand and spending…

Orienting too strongly towards “knowing” versus “learning”

Over the past 8 months I have spent 100+ hours learning my ASS off about race and racism in America. Last week I met with one of my favorite clients of all time, who happens to be a white man, approximately age 55, in tech, who I have worked with…